The stars were not aligned...

Not to say that things went bad today, just kinda weird. It was an all over weird day.

I woke up this morning just feeling weird. I don't know if anyone else felt this way, but the earth was just off axis or something cause it turned everything on it's side.

The day started off just like any other day... But now that I think of it, it was SUPER foggy this morning. I blame everything on the fog! LOL. Anywho seriously... I was running behind like I do every morning, but ended up still being on time for my contact lens elective. CL's went great, the first pt was a pro at getting scleral lenses it and the second pt was just so excited to get her scleral lenses and be able to see clearly again. I have to say that it is so rewarding to be able to provide a simple solution and totally change someone's life or perspective. You don't always realize how much a small act of kindness does for someone.

Ok so back to my weird day. I found out halfway through CL's that my skirt's seam ripped in the back! Can you say mortifying!!! OMG! But I found a needle and thread and was able to fix it, praise the lord. Then I had class, nothing to say there. Then I did a lunch and tour for interviewees. We had two interviewees today. I don't know why but I feel like I have so much to say and tell them about and I feel  like I still forget to tell them everything. I need to start making notes for myself during the week so that I don't get distracted just like I am right now and go on tangents. I need to focus better!!! And apparently I am a huge fan for exaggerating and exclamation points today!

On to primary care. It seemed like everyone's patients today had something out of the ordinary. Almost no one had a straight forward basic exam. I felt all over the place today. Again something was just off axis today. It was not a good day for wearing a skirt and heels, I shoulda just wore some comfy dress clothes and chilled especially since I knew it was going to be a long day... Sigh. We live and learn.

Well, I'm off to get some work done and hit the hay early tonight and get up to do zumba... Oh I just remembered I have to pop my chicken in the crock pot overnight so that I have something to eat for lunch... But wait I think I can skip that tonight and pop it in tomorrow at the latest, I bought the chicken last night so tomorrow should be my last day for keeping it in the fridge, I'll need to cook it tomorrow. Sigh. I write this like you care. I really should have just wrote in my journal tonight. Well sorry. Later.

Day 1... Again

Ok. So I'm starting the 30 day shred again. Level 1 Day 1. I'm not saying this is a New Year's Resolution, this is a life time resolution just to get more active every day. I have my fitbit that tracks my steps and I recruited a friend who already does twice as many steps as I do a day and I'm feeling a bit defeated already. I know that I can only blame myself for not getting enough steps in in a day and it's time I change that.
I'm making the commitment to get up every morning and at least do the 30 day shred. I feel so fat doing it. It makes me realize how out of shape I am, but if 400 lb people can do Jillian's workouts, then by golly so can I. I may modify it so that I can make it through, but I'm up and being active and honestly isn't that all that matters? That I'm up and doing it. It's like that quote about running: It doesn't matter how slow you go, you're already lapping everyone on the couch. The thing is, I can't compare myself to anyone else. I can only do what works for me and get to where I want/need to be. I just want to look in the mirror and not hate all the lumps and bumps and rolls. I want to look in the mirror and not hate myself for getting this way. I want it. I can get it. I can. I will. I have to. I just have to keep the motivation up.
Speaking of motivation... I have the fitbit and that will help. I also put up a calendar with milestone dates right by the fridge so that when I go into the kitchen to eat more food after dinner I can just look at the calendar and remind myself that summer will be here before you know it and I have a bikini from Victoria's Secret to cram my rolls into come June.
Keep tuned.